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I am thankful its Friday. I am thankful its a Friday of a THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!!
Oh, my goodness! I try really hard not to complain or vent about the childcare but these last two weeks I really question doing childcare anymore. I have bad times, remember them but the older I get it seems to be more and more. I was always the one with tons of kids around me, buying treats, teaching Sunday School, being at my kids schools, voluntering to do things, etc. Now, I pray to get through each day and still be able to smile. I have also noticed that I struggle even doing things with my own children which really makes me very sad.
I had my sub come in for a couple hours yesterday. Upon leaving I was informed that all the children had pretty bad behavior while she was here. I have noticed this the last couple times she has been here. Another time she was here, she had to call me and ask how to get a child to lay down for nap. This had never been a problem before! I could tell how worn she was after only being here 2 hours. This is also a lady that raised 6 boys and was a tough mom. I have never had an issue with children listening to her and now, oh my goodness. I have a feeling she will start wanting to help less and less-
This last week I have actually been falling asleep for the night about 15 min. after my last one leaves. My husband wakes me up after about 30 min. so I can eat, shower, and if I need to do something I can or I would be sleeping every night till the next morning. I have sleep issues anyway and been to several doctors and they never find anything but it has never been this bad. Its almost like I'm just so mentally tired that my brain just literally justs down after the last one leaves. Almost like my mind isn't being challenged enough through the day with maybe adult things, but with 3/4 year old language, and constant whining, fighting, tattling, etc. I notice I actually crave more adult type things then I ever have in my life and being just alone=its about 50/50 on what I want to do.
I really love my job but noticing I love the teaching part but really tiring of having to do everything else anymore. Doing the cooking, cleaning, paperwork, and discipline. I think the behavior is what is the most trying part anymore. The last two weeks ALL my parents have even told me how trying the kids have been and we are at a loss of what to do. They all feel for me having to deal with it during the day, knowing I don't have just their child but 5 more. I have some awesome parents!!!! Not one child forgot to bring me a little something yesterday-happyface
Also, I'm starting to find it hard keeping up with my own kids. I'm exhausted by the end of the day and just can't seem to find the energy to keep up with everything they need also or keep track of stuff. Like I asked my son to do something and when I looked over he hadn't done it. He had already left for school so now its something I need to do. Believe me he will hear about it but if I wasn't busy doing something with the childcare I could have followed through making sure it was done. I notice this more and more and so do my kids. They will ask me for something after school or before and usually I have so much going on with the childcare it goes on the back burner.
No, downsizing isn't an option for the moment. Maybe its just the weather, but we have had a pretty mild winter so I'm not sure. What I am sure about is I'm very happy for a 3 DAY WEEKEND!!!!
Anyway, sorry this has become longer then I thought it would. I just needed to talk/vent with some friends who know the challenges of this job. Knowing you guys are here everyday to talk to helps keep me going!
THANK YOU-happyface:hug
hughug:
Oh, my goodness! I try really hard not to complain or vent about the childcare but these last two weeks I really question doing childcare anymore. I have bad times, remember them but the older I get it seems to be more and more. I was always the one with tons of kids around me, buying treats, teaching Sunday School, being at my kids schools, voluntering to do things, etc. Now, I pray to get through each day and still be able to smile. I have also noticed that I struggle even doing things with my own children which really makes me very sad.
I had my sub come in for a couple hours yesterday. Upon leaving I was informed that all the children had pretty bad behavior while she was here. I have noticed this the last couple times she has been here. Another time she was here, she had to call me and ask how to get a child to lay down for nap. This had never been a problem before! I could tell how worn she was after only being here 2 hours. This is also a lady that raised 6 boys and was a tough mom. I have never had an issue with children listening to her and now, oh my goodness. I have a feeling she will start wanting to help less and less-
This last week I have actually been falling asleep for the night about 15 min. after my last one leaves. My husband wakes me up after about 30 min. so I can eat, shower, and if I need to do something I can or I would be sleeping every night till the next morning. I have sleep issues anyway and been to several doctors and they never find anything but it has never been this bad. Its almost like I'm just so mentally tired that my brain just literally justs down after the last one leaves. Almost like my mind isn't being challenged enough through the day with maybe adult things, but with 3/4 year old language, and constant whining, fighting, tattling, etc. I notice I actually crave more adult type things then I ever have in my life and being just alone=its about 50/50 on what I want to do.
I really love my job but noticing I love the teaching part but really tiring of having to do everything else anymore. Doing the cooking, cleaning, paperwork, and discipline. I think the behavior is what is the most trying part anymore. The last two weeks ALL my parents have even told me how trying the kids have been and we are at a loss of what to do. They all feel for me having to deal with it during the day, knowing I don't have just their child but 5 more. I have some awesome parents!!!! Not one child forgot to bring me a little something yesterday-happyface
Also, I'm starting to find it hard keeping up with my own kids. I'm exhausted by the end of the day and just can't seem to find the energy to keep up with everything they need also or keep track of stuff. Like I asked my son to do something and when I looked over he hadn't done it. He had already left for school so now its something I need to do. Believe me he will hear about it but if I wasn't busy doing something with the childcare I could have followed through making sure it was done. I notice this more and more and so do my kids. They will ask me for something after school or before and usually I have so much going on with the childcare it goes on the back burner.
No, downsizing isn't an option for the moment. Maybe its just the weather, but we have had a pretty mild winter so I'm not sure. What I am sure about is I'm very happy for a 3 DAY WEEKEND!!!!
Anyway, sorry this has become longer then I thought it would. I just needed to talk/vent with some friends who know the challenges of this job. Knowing you guys are here everyday to talk to helps keep me going!
THANK YOU-happyface:hug
hughug:
So far they are carrying the behavior over into today-sigh.
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