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I have been holding a spot now for a few months for a full time 7 month old starting on Monday. He was drop in until now as she has a nanny who is a friend of hers going back to college this month.
I have my 12 month old (born at 28 weeks) screamer who is part time anywhere from 1-5 days per week weekends included.
I have a drop in 4 month old right now that is supposed to replace screamer though is not a guaranteed income.
Last but not least, I have 17 month old DS who is into EVERYTHING (ahhh toddlerhood). Beyond sick of sharing me and having kids here. Majorly attached to his pacifier for comfort for a few weeks now. Clingy, whiney, making me feel so guilty he has to share his home day after day and his mommy as well. And has my husband says it "But he does like to eat and have a place to live" SO that is why I do what I do.
Screamer has been on vacation for about 10 days and things have been so much better around here not having to listen to her all day and I don't dread getting up in the morning anymore since she hasn't been here.
She will be here on Sunday though from 12pm-9pm. I have done weekends for her since the beginning because she was my only child in care and I needed the income. Then on Monday she is here bright and early at 7AM along with FT 7 month old and Drop in 4 month old.
I am DREADING this. I am so stupid to have taken on so many under 2 year olds but that is all that is around here right now...
4 month old eats every two hours and she sleeps in a PNP in the living room because she is a tummy sleeper (I lay her on her back, she rolls) and it makes me REALLY nervous because she can't roll back and she is at the "prime" age for SIDS.
12 month old PT screamer NEVER eats more than maybe 4 ounces per day and won't touch anything else. I have posted about her a million times and I am planning on either terming her when they come back from vacation or telling mom I won't be able to accommodate weekends or evening hours anymore.
7 month old FT DCB I am not very familiar with anymore because he hasn't been here much recently and I am sure a ton has changed.
Right now I am having a heck of a time even getting myself fed and using the bathroom with just DS and 4 month old DCG. I have no idea how I am going to do next week. And PT DCG will have to come next weekend too because they have been on vacation so therefore I will have DCKs 15 DAYS IN A ROW!
My DS is going to be just MISERABLE.
I am seriously considering just quitting it all and picking back up after we move in three months. Spending time with just DS and being a SAHM.. Financially, we will be ruined. But at this point I just don't care. I am miserable. He is miserable. Housework has fallen behind in the worst way (mostly in the bedrooms and bathrooms that noone sees on a regular basis).
I can't take watching another tear fall from his face because every time he wakes up there is a DCK here. I can't stand the thought that I can't sit on the floor and play with him because someone needs feeding, changing, etc.
I know we need the money and I know I can't quit. But I am just DONE! I just can't take the screaming anymore and I can't take the look on his face when I say "Go play honey mommy cant right now.."
He plays wonderfully when no DCKs are here.... but when they are here he just wants me. He wants to go outside. He wants to just be alone and have quiet!
...and so do I.
Thanks for listening... I needed to leave the room and get a break from the screaming and BREATHE and VENT. He is playing nicely now and DCG is finally asleep..... Maybe I will get to eat now. No idea what I am going to do with two more in the mix on Monday.
I have my 12 month old (born at 28 weeks) screamer who is part time anywhere from 1-5 days per week weekends included.
I have a drop in 4 month old right now that is supposed to replace screamer though is not a guaranteed income.
Last but not least, I have 17 month old DS who is into EVERYTHING (ahhh toddlerhood). Beyond sick of sharing me and having kids here. Majorly attached to his pacifier for comfort for a few weeks now. Clingy, whiney, making me feel so guilty he has to share his home day after day and his mommy as well. And has my husband says it "But he does like to eat and have a place to live" SO that is why I do what I do.
Screamer has been on vacation for about 10 days and things have been so much better around here not having to listen to her all day and I don't dread getting up in the morning anymore since she hasn't been here.
She will be here on Sunday though from 12pm-9pm. I have done weekends for her since the beginning because she was my only child in care and I needed the income. Then on Monday she is here bright and early at 7AM along with FT 7 month old and Drop in 4 month old.
I am DREADING this. I am so stupid to have taken on so many under 2 year olds but that is all that is around here right now...
4 month old eats every two hours and she sleeps in a PNP in the living room because she is a tummy sleeper (I lay her on her back, she rolls) and it makes me REALLY nervous because she can't roll back and she is at the "prime" age for SIDS.
12 month old PT screamer NEVER eats more than maybe 4 ounces per day and won't touch anything else. I have posted about her a million times and I am planning on either terming her when they come back from vacation or telling mom I won't be able to accommodate weekends or evening hours anymore.
7 month old FT DCB I am not very familiar with anymore because he hasn't been here much recently and I am sure a ton has changed.
Right now I am having a heck of a time even getting myself fed and using the bathroom with just DS and 4 month old DCG. I have no idea how I am going to do next week. And PT DCG will have to come next weekend too because they have been on vacation so therefore I will have DCKs 15 DAYS IN A ROW!
My DS is going to be just MISERABLE.
I am seriously considering just quitting it all and picking back up after we move in three months. Spending time with just DS and being a SAHM.. Financially, we will be ruined. But at this point I just don't care. I am miserable. He is miserable. Housework has fallen behind in the worst way (mostly in the bedrooms and bathrooms that noone sees on a regular basis).
I can't take watching another tear fall from his face because every time he wakes up there is a DCK here. I can't stand the thought that I can't sit on the floor and play with him because someone needs feeding, changing, etc.
I know we need the money and I know I can't quit. But I am just DONE! I just can't take the screaming anymore and I can't take the look on his face when I say "Go play honey mommy cant right now.."
He plays wonderfully when no DCKs are here.... but when they are here he just wants me. He wants to go outside. He wants to just be alone and have quiet!
...and so do I.
Thanks for listening... I needed to leave the room and get a break from the screaming and BREATHE and VENT. He is playing nicely now and DCG is finally asleep..... Maybe I will get to eat now. No idea what I am going to do with two more in the mix on Monday.
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