That about sums it up 
Everything I try to do "curriculum" wise doesn't work--the kids aren't interested or it's above their level, or there's one that just cries whenever I offer something fun. The fun things I offer end in tears and fights among the kids. The days I just let them play end in tears and fights and squabbles. I can't win
I love the kids and don't want to lose them but if I could I would quit in a heartbeat. I can't--our ends don't meet as it is right now and there's nothing "out in the world" I can do to make more money.
I need to change something drastic...and fast. But what?
*sigh* I don't know if there's a solution, but I needed to whine about it all. Maybe that will help me clear my head and figure this out.

Everything I try to do "curriculum" wise doesn't work--the kids aren't interested or it's above their level, or there's one that just cries whenever I offer something fun. The fun things I offer end in tears and fights among the kids. The days I just let them play end in tears and fights and squabbles. I can't win

I love the kids and don't want to lose them but if I could I would quit in a heartbeat. I can't--our ends don't meet as it is right now and there's nothing "out in the world" I can do to make more money.
I need to change something drastic...and fast. But what?
*sigh* I don't know if there's a solution, but I needed to whine about it all. Maybe that will help me clear my head and figure this out.
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